1. Kendra Fischl

    Dear Marcia-
    I thoroughly enjoyed reading this blog, probably because I am in that position myself right now. I retired at the end of last school year for many reasons; one of the main ones being that my brother passed away of malignant melanoma at age 57, and I was a PE teacher and coach outdoors all day. I have had several basal cancerous growths removed and am on the lookout all the time with my dermatologist…a hard place to be.
    Also, my daughter, Amy, had a baby boy, and needs to work. (She is a teacher, too.) I offered to babysit three days a week. I started yesterday, and love it!! Today, I find myself having my first “free” day. I get to “reinvent” and see where my two free days a week end up going. It feels so strange and like I am in an in-between place. But, as you write, it is not so in-between after all. It is where I am, and not having a rhythm for these days is going to be a beautiful thing. Already I like today as I had time to read your blog and “take it in” which I never had during my 25 years of teaching and raising 4 kids.
    I want to cherish each day, and thank you that today I got to start by reading what you wrote, and knowing God has plans for these days as they come. I pray I can follow His will and be a blessing to others, and to take some space to just be me!
    Thank you for your writing, and knowledge you share so well, Kendra Fischl
    (I met you at First Presbyterian Church in Libertyville; we now worship at The Chapel in Libertyville (switched about 8 years ago)

  2. Marcia

    Dear Kendra,
    So wonderful to hear from you. I like the image of you settling in to this new way of being. It sounds full of possibility and promise. Amy is very fortunate to have you ready and willing to be a major care giver for her little one–and what a blessing for him, too. I have a feeling you will find a way to make beautiful music from it all! I hope you will find your way in this new space with a lot of patience, too. Some days will feel frustrating and diminishing, others will feel freeing and affirming. May God’s Spirit be generous to you in all of those different feelings.
    Thanks so much for reading and for commenting. I hope you will continue to do both.
    Blessings to you and the whole family.

  3. Ann Kruse

    Dear Marcia,
    Though it shouldn’t have come as a surprise, I have recently realized that I have always lived my life in the spaces in-between. Stumbling upon your post this morning seems providential. When I first shared the idea of my existence in the formless free-space between others’ intentions and my own unrealized dreams, I felt a little goofy, not knowing if the thought was ridiculous or profound. But thinking back to my own theological studies, it is the biblical women’s stories, lived in-between and around the actions of men, that provide a broader context and deeper meaning to the body of material at large. I am finding for myself a new appreciation for living undefined by social identities and reveling in the “wisdom (that) comes from these unblunted edges”. Thank you!

    1. Marcia

      Dear Ann,
      Thank you for reading and for commenting. Your descriptions and your linking with the women of the Bible are very helpful. The “space between others’ intentions” and “unrealized dreams” is especially vivid and suggestive. Those descriptions and examples help me deepen my own capacity to notice what this way of life “looks like” even as I know how it feels. I agree, too, with you that as I feel more at home in this in-between space, I am more and more able to see the gifts. Blessings to you and thank you again for adding your thoughts to this conversation.


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